Am I in over my head?

So I shall start my weight lost venture at the beginning of the new year. 1/1/11 Don't those numbers have a nice ring to them? I think that 1/1/11 are just the perfect numbers to help me start my weight lost goal. The number's show consistency, which is a skill which im going to have to embrace if I want to shed and KEEP those pounds off!!

Okay so it all started when I was just a lil girl possibly 7 or 8. You see before that I was always a healthy baby and toddler but somewhere between the ages of 7 and 8 I just ballooned up! All i ever did was eat and grow. I was always the tallest, the biggest, the fattest at home and at school so since I was what I was I guess if i just pretended to the other kids that I CHOSE to be what I was, that I chose and wanted to be the biggest that they wouldn't notice it. So I ate possibly more then I should.

Looking back now I guess if i wanted to loose the minor difference back then I could have, but what 7 year old girl wants to be on a diet?(back then I don't think I knew what a diet was) So I pretended to my peers, my family and all that I knew that I wanted to be fat. This was the only way I could think to make my family and friends accept me, so I wouldn't be made fun off, so that I could avoid being made embarrassed of my weight.

This new year, I want to loose the weight not just to be slim but also to prove to myself that I have self-control. That I can be pretty. I want to be more confident of my self, more self assured! I want to be able to wear a cute dress or even a skirt without feeling like I've wrapped myself in a curtain. I want to be able to not head to the maternity section when i look for new clothes. I want a refreshing change in my life. And I am determined to achieve my goal